"When I am dealing with an all-powerful, all-knowing God, I, as mere mortal, must offer not only with persistence, but also with patience. Someday I'll know why."
-Ruth Bell Graham
It's hilarious to me how serious I take the trials of this world. How I look back to the problems and pain I had even just months ago and shake my head at how silly it all seems now. There have been times recently when I was so shocked and hurt that I could barely breathe..barely stay attentive enough for a conversatoin..barely sleep enough to get through the next day. BUT we are called to give thanks and praise in afflictions and that's exactly what I'm gonna do. My momma always taught me to give my day to God every morning so that it will completely change my entire day..and it always does..so I have been keeping that mindset lately and anytime I have been down or sad or hurting even the slightest bit I say a quick prayer for restoration and peace and it's unreal how fast I feel those things. I worry too much. I get that from my mom too and it's something that I really need to work on because worrying really is a sin.
"To trust Him means, of course, trying to do all that He says. There would be no sense in saying you trusted a person if you would not take his advice. Thus if you have really handed yourself over to Him, it must follow that you are trying to obey Him. But trying in a new way, a less worried way." - C.S. Lewis
I've always been one to give advice to my friends and family..been easy to talk to I feel like and I'm always the first to point to Christ. "Lean on Him for understanding," and "God will get you through, He always does." But who am I to give that when I am not going to that same advice first? It just comes down to being able to fully rely on the fact that God has me right where He wants me and that my timing is not always His timing. I really am doing so much better than I thought I would be though. Everyone knows how emotional and sensitive I can be (not always a GREAT things but I like to look at is as a quirk, ha) and so for me to be handling all the stress and confusion life has thrown at me lately like I am is crazy. It's always those first few days; intial shock and then you start to heal but being a who I am AND a girl it takes me much longer..and for some reason God has just had my heart in His hands this week and I am so super thankful. I know, I know..I need to start practicing what I'm preaching and just stop talking about it all but it's just what the majority of my prayers and thoughts have been about this week and so when I get it out I really GET IT OUT and I can let go. Which is exactly what I'm doing. I will never be able to fathom the perfectness of Christ but I am so glad I have seen huge glimpses these past few weeks.
On a lighter note, graduation is rapidly approaching! I have tomorrow and then 5 days next week and I am officially done with cosmetology school! I will have state boards to take when I get back to Indiana after 4-6 weeks being done with my 1500 hours and work and I could not be more happy. Like I said a few days ago, although I'm going to miss the people and school SO much, there were several days in the past 2 years when I never ever thought it would come to an end but I am finally here and it feels so good. So good to have accomplished something and so good to have a PLAN. I can't wait to start working and making people feel beautiful. Have my own place and hours and Morgan to work with and be in my hometown and be able to see my friends and family whenever I want and just start my new life all over again. So for now I'm just gettin those hours at school and starting to pack up my stuff! For every door that closes, another opens..even if it is back in Crawfordsville, Indiana.
"Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the wilderness, and streams in the wasteland." - Isaiah 43:18-19
Oh and just a little funny something that's helped get me through this week:
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