Change.

It's a mixture of wanting and knowing: of knowing what you want isn't always what you need. It's concluding that every breath you breathe is a battle for that same thing. Sometimes it's suffocating, and sometimes it's all you really need. It's that crazy, panicky feeling you keep fighting off..it's all the "I wish.." and "I hopes" that you have. It's seeking for answers, but only finding ones you don't need. It's learning from the past...but you have to make one first. It's life, you live it. We all do.

Home Sweet Home

I've never adjusted so easily to change in my life. I'm sitting at Chris and Katie's living room watching tv and talking with some of my favorite people in the world and realizing that this is not vacation. This is MY living room too! MY new shared house! With MY new room and I don't have to leave in a week! How amazing. I finally got settled in and all (16 boxes!!) unpacked last night and it was a huge relief! Thanks to Chris and Brett, who spent hours assembling my dressers and moving the huge desk to the master bedroom..shoutout to you boys, it's been a whirlwind but it's finally all coming together! I can't wait to start Paul Mitchell next Tuesday. School will always be school to me but I am finally excited about finishing something, excited to start something even. I have a peace knowing that I'll be getting my license from them and that I have people around me who are encouraging me every step of the way.

It was so hard leaving the people I love dearest back at home. Saying goodbye to Makinze and Aimee was nothing but blubbering words and tears. I can't even talk about my little brother. I guess maybe knowing that I'll be missing out on his senior year and him leaving for the Marines is what makes it such a challenge. Also, we're finally at the stage where we're best friends, and not just siblings. But I also know that I'm an hour long plane trip or a 10 hour car ride back to the place I grew up. Oh, and thank God for facebook keeping me updated on everything. :)

I really do feel like the luckiest girl in the world. I feel like no one has a better support system or a more amazing family than me. I'm finally TRULY seeing that when you follow Christ with all your heart and trust in His unfailing will, you'll be more happy than you ever imagined. I also feel like these posts keep getting more and more cliche..I need to get my old creative writing juices flowing! Off to finish a movie. I love you all!

My new room!!