You Watch Over Me.

You watch over me in the darkest valleys.

You watch over me when the night seems long.

You help me to see, the way before me.

You watch over me, You watch over me.

"..and be content with what you have, because God has said, "Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you," And so we say with confidence, "The Lord is my helper, I will not be afraid. What can mere mortals do to me?" -Hebrews 13:5-6

In a matter of a few days my life has drastically changed. Austin got a call about a job back in Georgia on Thursday and is hearing back from them tomorrow. He has been offered a position with the water dept. for the county he lives in and it is something he has been waiting on for a long time, even before he moved here to Indiana to be with me. If he is offered this job tomorrow we will be packing up (AGAIN) and heading down to GA! I know..I just started a salon here in Crawfordsville with the help of my precious family and dear friend Morgan Servies-Smith but I guess this just comes with the territory of getting married. I have to look at the bigger picture for what is best for us, our future, and our future family. We definitely knew we would end up going back to GA, as there are much better job oppportunities for Austin but we just had NO idea it would be this soon. We are even thinking about moving the wedding date up..like 6 months up. We're still trying to figure out why we even thought about waiting a year..its just too long. So with that being said, a LOT falls on tomorrow. I am delighted that Austin will be in a job he loves and has waited for but I am absolutely heartbroken that I will be once again leaving home..this time for good..and before Brennan even got home from California. I have been in constant prayer to have a peace about this if it is God's will but lets face it: someone loses. Someone has to leave their family and friends behind. We knew this going into our relationship and engagement but no one ever knew how HARD it really would be. I just have so many mixed feelings. First, selfishly: what about my job; my salon? Who will I hang out with? Will I have friends? Will I want to come home. But I don't want to leave my family. What if I get there and hate it? Will I feel stuck?...and then the selfless side kicks in: its best for our future. My family can come visit anytime. I will find a job..I will make friends. Austin will have a great job that allows him great pay and great hour, etc. I AM IN SUCH A HARD SPOT! Obviously I know we will go to GA if he gets this job but I am so desperate for a peace about it it is driving me crazy. I would follow Austin anywhere but I just wish it were easier. I am so close to my family and friends and I just can't imagine that in THREE WEEKS I could be living back in GA. There's just so much closure that would need to happen between now and then and thats what scares me I think. But I am just resting in Gods plan. This job didn't just come up randomly and I think if Austin gets it that will be our answer: time to go back. Yikes.

I really am so thankful that I am never out of Gods care and plan though. If you would've asked me one year ago today if I would be engaged, in this predicament, and at this point in my life I would have laughed in your face. But, day by day, I am falling more and more in love with life..God..and my fiance. We might not have picture perfect circumstances..but nothing I've ever done has ever been normal anyways, I'm not sure what I was expecting. :) So here's to yet another adventure brought to my life. I know I will never be given more than I can handle and there really is such peace in that..even if it means packing up my life into boxes in a matter of 2 weeks, putting together a wedding faster than I ever thought, and figuring out life as we go..at least I'm doing it all with my soulmate. Thank you, God, for Austin and for opportunities..no matter how random they may be! I don't always know what's best for me, contrary to what I may think, and somehow, someway, that is a little comforting..for I am only a man. I have a God who knew me in my mothers womb..how can I worry about a move?! It is what it is. Deep breaths, Bailey, it will all work out..it always does...

Changes.

APRIL. April..I have not blogged since April. When did my life get so hectic that I lost my motivation and drive to write. Writing is an outlet for me and I have to make this a priority again. I'm so much happier when I can sort out my daily thoughts and get my feelings out there..so better late than never, right?! I was looking back on my last entry and the thing that stuck out to me most is that I had a boyfriend then. I don't have a boyfriend now..I have a FIANCE!! Yes I'm sure everyone already knows but seriously I'M GETTING MARRIED! In a nutshell, my amazing and wonderful Austin got all moved up here and lives in the little cottage house behind my Grandpa Jim's house and is working at Temple Inland which he's not too sure of but is making great money for our life together soon! He proposed May 23 at Fogo De Chao and I have never been happier in my life. My family and friends LOVE him and he just fits right in. It's been SUCH a blast planning a wedding..my engagement ring is the most beautiful thing I've ever seen..I have my dream dress..and the details are slowly coming together..we have a HUGE wedding party with 10 bridesmaids and 10 groomsmen. How fun right!? We have switched colors and ideas already so much so I'm not exactly sure on details yet but I do know that we are getting married June 16, 2012..and believe me I am already counting down! We don't have a ceremony venue yet but have booked the Crawfordsville Country Club for the reception. All I know is that its going to be amazing and perfect and its all because of the Godly, wonderful, caring, sweet, kind, selfless, hardworking, smart and SOUTHERN man that I've fallen soo in love with. He's truly made all my dreams come true. I am the luckiest woman alive. I also know that as soon as we get married we are moving back to GA. It's not my first decision but I have to support my future HUSBAND with what is best for us and our future and with his jobs and opportunities it seems best to move..and I know that I can always do hair anywhere. I have been praying about it and I have a peace about it..God really is so faithful. I guess I'm just so happy it doesn't matter..I would follow Austin to the ends of this earth and do anything to be with him..and being 4 hours from the beach wont hurt either. ;)

Other news quickly before I pass out because its 2:30am and I'm still up watching trash tv: Brennan graduated Recruit training and is now back in Infantry training in Camp Pendleton, CA and only has about 5 weeks yet before he comes home for awhile we hope!!! He is a reservist right now so has signed on for 6 years but is not active duty so he won't be the very first to go fight but not too far behind..there's a great chance he will be deployed sometime within the next 6 years..sad but were so proud of him and cant wait to love on him and have him home at least for awhile. He has been through more than most people will ever dream and he's truly our hero. <33 Work is going well..still workin at my little salon mom and dad set up for me under Morgan Servies and I am loving it. Not tooo busy yet but slowly building a clientelle and really enjoying what I do. I've even thought about going back to school though to do something with the justice system but I can't decide. I'm just not completely fulfilled but I just think its because I'm not super busy yet. But my clients that I do have are so amazing and wonderful and I really do love what I do. It lets me be creative and doesn't even seem like a job..I am so blessed. My family is wonderful..just trying to enjoy summer together..lots of days by the pool and cookouts..OH and I turned 21 last week and had a blast celebrating! I am so thankful for my family and friends. I am one lucky girl and I owe it all to my Savior. This time last year I was dealing with so many battles and struggling with what was to come and what decisions I was supposed to make but looking back EVERYTHING good and bad happened for a reason and got me to this amazing point in my life and I've never felt so at peace and happy and like where I'm at and who I am with is RIGHT. It's amazing what obedience to Christ and prayer can do, I'm tellin ya. Well I'm off to bed..gonna go to Indy with momma tomorrow for wedding dress fittings, wedding band picking, and shopping! To God alone be the glory!!