Change.

It's a mixture of wanting and knowing: of knowing what you want isn't always what you need. It's concluding that every breath you breathe is a battle for that same thing. Sometimes it's suffocating, and sometimes it's all you really need. It's that crazy, panicky feeling you keep fighting off..it's all the "I wish.." and "I hopes" that you have. It's seeking for answers, but only finding ones you don't need. It's learning from the past...but you have to make one first. It's life, you live it. We all do.