You Watch Over Me.

You watch over me in the darkest valleys.

You watch over me when the night seems long.

You help me to see, the way before me.

You watch over me, You watch over me.

"..and be content with what you have, because God has said, "Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you," And so we say with confidence, "The Lord is my helper, I will not be afraid. What can mere mortals do to me?" -Hebrews 13:5-6

In a matter of a few days my life has drastically changed. Austin got a call about a job back in Georgia on Thursday and is hearing back from them tomorrow. He has been offered a position with the water dept. for the county he lives in and it is something he has been waiting on for a long time, even before he moved here to Indiana to be with me. If he is offered this job tomorrow we will be packing up (AGAIN) and heading down to GA! I know..I just started a salon here in Crawfordsville with the help of my precious family and dear friend Morgan Servies-Smith but I guess this just comes with the territory of getting married. I have to look at the bigger picture for what is best for us, our future, and our future family. We definitely knew we would end up going back to GA, as there are much better job oppportunities for Austin but we just had NO idea it would be this soon. We are even thinking about moving the wedding date up..like 6 months up. We're still trying to figure out why we even thought about waiting a year..its just too long. So with that being said, a LOT falls on tomorrow. I am delighted that Austin will be in a job he loves and has waited for but I am absolutely heartbroken that I will be once again leaving home..this time for good..and before Brennan even got home from California. I have been in constant prayer to have a peace about this if it is God's will but lets face it: someone loses. Someone has to leave their family and friends behind. We knew this going into our relationship and engagement but no one ever knew how HARD it really would be. I just have so many mixed feelings. First, selfishly: what about my job; my salon? Who will I hang out with? Will I have friends? Will I want to come home. But I don't want to leave my family. What if I get there and hate it? Will I feel stuck?...and then the selfless side kicks in: its best for our future. My family can come visit anytime. I will find a job..I will make friends. Austin will have a great job that allows him great pay and great hour, etc. I AM IN SUCH A HARD SPOT! Obviously I know we will go to GA if he gets this job but I am so desperate for a peace about it it is driving me crazy. I would follow Austin anywhere but I just wish it were easier. I am so close to my family and friends and I just can't imagine that in THREE WEEKS I could be living back in GA. There's just so much closure that would need to happen between now and then and thats what scares me I think. But I am just resting in Gods plan. This job didn't just come up randomly and I think if Austin gets it that will be our answer: time to go back. Yikes.

I really am so thankful that I am never out of Gods care and plan though. If you would've asked me one year ago today if I would be engaged, in this predicament, and at this point in my life I would have laughed in your face. But, day by day, I am falling more and more in love with life..God..and my fiance. We might not have picture perfect circumstances..but nothing I've ever done has ever been normal anyways, I'm not sure what I was expecting. :) So here's to yet another adventure brought to my life. I know I will never be given more than I can handle and there really is such peace in that..even if it means packing up my life into boxes in a matter of 2 weeks, putting together a wedding faster than I ever thought, and figuring out life as we go..at least I'm doing it all with my soulmate. Thank you, God, for Austin and for opportunities..no matter how random they may be! I don't always know what's best for me, contrary to what I may think, and somehow, someway, that is a little comforting..for I am only a man. I have a God who knew me in my mothers womb..how can I worry about a move?! It is what it is. Deep breaths, Bailey, it will all work out..it always does...