Monday, January 17, 2011

Big girl life.

I layed down to take a mid-afternoon nap in which I can usually fall asleep in about 10 minutes and to my surprise could NOT sleep for anything. I have so many thoughts bouncing around in my head. I'm going home this weekend to finalize some things for my salon, after a long snow-break I start another long week at Paul Mitchell in the morning, I have many decisions to make, and I often find myself caring a little too much about what others think. And the more I really think about it, I have to do what is honoring to God and what makes ME happy. Not what looks best, or what others would do. I truly think that's the only way to live. Now to practice that...

But one thing I always have to remember is that if I am doing what is pleasing to the Lord, He will never judge me for my personal decisions and He will give me the true desires of my heart. That is so comforting. I think a lot of people often get the idea that Jesus has a set way of seeing things..an EXACT way of how we should live...BUT free-will as humans doesn't have to be a bad thing. I think that since the fall of man created free-will it is looked upon as people making mistakes, BUT it simply doesn't have to be that way. Life is supposed to be fun and satisfying and creative. I am so excited to start making important life decisions how I want to. I am constantly praying for confidence in myself and following my heart will not be a challenge.

I truly can't wait to get home this weekend and see my family and friends. I also never thought I would get so excited about paint colors and furniture and all those big girl things I get to decide for my salon..which is still nameless. I have a few ideas but nothing that's really speaking to me yet. Bummer. It'll come though..I have some time. And when I get back from IN next Monday, I'll only have about a month of school left before it's time to move home for good! How exciting. Not quite looking forward to packing everything up, leaving my friends here and a 10 hour car ride..but it will be exciting nonetheless. I honestly still can't believe God is leading me BACK to my hometown, but like they say, home is where the heart is! I am just so happy that I am at PEACE with all these decisions and that I am excited to start working. I find it a HUGE blessing that I get to do something I love everyday as my career..I feel like most people get a general idea of what they like to do but at the end of the day they aren't truly happy going to work everyday and I am confident that I will indeed enjoy waking up everyday for my job and getting to work with people and give them confidence. This has been such a good season of my life here in Georgia but it's just time to go home. And I am so happy.

Time for dinner..and highlighting Katie's hair..and The Bachelor..and being so thankful for all the people and places and experience and education and LOVE in my life. I am one blessed little girl who has an amazing Savior who is more faithful and unconditional than I could ever deserve. Soli Deo Gloria: to God alone be the glory. And always remember, the will of God will never take you where the grace of God will not protect you.

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