I miss this.

I miss my house on Country Club Road that I grew up in...the wrapping paper and gift closet I would rummage through even though it was the same stuff everytime. Stuff was piled so high I could just sit on it all and dig. I miss running around the backyard but hating being barefoot in the grass..feeling the hot trampoline and having lunch on a sheet under the sun. The time that my parents surprised me with my playhouse. The old piano in the fancy room no one ever went it. Birthday parties when all 4 grandparents would be there and together. Making up dances in my old room and taking pictures with my friends on my polaroid sticky film camera. Christmases in the family room and the cabinets behind the couch filled with books and CDs. Crying in the pantry when my parents would leave us with a babysitter..especially on New Years because Brennan and I always knew mom and dad wouldn't be home until really late. Taking bubble baths in my parents big tub and getting constant splinters on the wood floor. My mom reading Boxcar Children and BabySitters Club books in her big bed before bed. The peanut butter eggs in the fridge every Easter from Tri Kappa. Mostly I just miss having a pretty house to grow up in with a close and unconditional family there every step of the way.

I miss summer camp with best friends and meeting new ones there that you 'promise you'll visit' but never do. Hanging out in the 'bunks' with endless amounts of junkfood and friendship bracelets and secrets and staying up late. Some of my BEST memories were at Twin Lakes Camp and CIY. Never leaving the cabin at Twin Lakes to do activities because I could always convince someone that it was 'too hot out' or 'we'd have more fun inside'..I've never been one for outdoors. But the time I did spend there were so fun. CIY..Christ in Youth..at Anderson U every summer of high school with my best friend Aimee were literally the best weeks of high school. THOUSANDS of kids hyped up for Jesus. You get to forget about being pressured to do wrong or not be yourself..you learn to love your flaws and love others for theirs..you get genuine worship that strips you of any insecurity and helps you fall in love with God all over again..and you get recharged to live for the LORD with so many fun people. Just being there. Being silly. Playing games. Eating the awesome cafeteria food in hopes of seeing one of the members of Aaron Pelsue Band. Looking past any differences you had with anyone before you got there. Studying the bible and learning things you knew but never really KNEW. Moving the beds close to eachother in the dorms to make one huge bed for me and Aimee. Staying up WAY too late talking and confessing and trying to get our act together. I would do ANYTHING for one more week back there.

Well that's all. So random. But those 2 things were on my heart tonight. Alright. Peace.

Me and bubba at my old house.

My best friend Aimee. I just love her.